Pam's Blog

what a week!

2003-08-27T00:27:00.000-04:00

well where do i start now.. hmm.. well start off with thursday night!.. I SO GOT INTO PEAKES! it was totally awesome, i can't beleive it acutally happened, i had the best time eer i can't wait to go back again! whooop! lol then friday and saturday did the usual smoke up kind evenings,and then sunday night had an amazing bon fire at the lake... then went back to dereks for an interesting evening. after marly went to bed.. he came out to talk with us, and he was all touchy feely with me.. and HEY.. WHO AM I TO STOP A GOOD THING.. lol.. id never go out with him..fuck yes.. go out..no.. and then he asked me to marry him.. lol..so of course i did.. and then monday we had anotehr bonfire at the lake.. but idecided id better go hhome early, becaue i go tin shit the nght before.. OOPS so they dropped me off at 1:30 which was awesome fine.. they wento ut back to the lake and had rest of the fun... after i bit i guess they decided to come back to town.. on the way back to town aarons car was smokin becaseu there was a pinhole in some rod that they got fixed today.. and then paula and derek were racing on kengiston road.. and paula was goign so fast she had to avoid hitting derek and another oncomign car.. so she had to take a fast turn and she hita pot hole.. and then her car woudlnt start. so they had all nine of htem pushing her car from the front of the civic center to derek place.. which is queen street, i think that ouwld of been the funniest sightEVER 2 see!:P so that was good they parked her car and went into the apartment and went to bed.. then 9*30 this morning they were awoken by a pounding at the door.. who was it.. BUT PAUL WEEKS.. haha so he bitched they out bout being a dirty house and shit.. and then ended up coming back later with an eviction notice for them.. so now.. THEY ARE EVICTED.. so they are lookin for a new apartment to have amazin parties in.. i cant wait at all. so that basically sums up the weekend.. but oh ya.. tonight me and lynsey were flashing people! dont ak why.. and im dont at Simmons this friday *tear* im going to miss it,.. i LOVED working there.. the people were awesome, and ill so have to apply back for it next summer.. but sad part is.. im back at MCDONALDS.. yes.. the fast food restaurant.. i woudlnt of went back there.. but they offered... THEY OFFERED(i repeat) OFFERED me a manager job.. so i'll take that.. and live off workin there.. as much as it sucks the fat cock.. its money.. and it will either get me a car or my own place.. awesome and cant wait. Sobeys called me this morning.. and asked me if i was commingback.. ohh was that difficult to tell ditsy elaine that iwasnt.. but after i hugn up i laughed.. becuae she was soo pissed when i said i wasnt commign back.. lol oops.. but im getting a million emails.. gotta jet.. i totally gotta keep up with my blogs.. becae i keep writing uber long ones!!
~!pam!~

STupid..Stupid Picture

2003-08-21T01:42:00.000-04:00

Well.. its been a couple days since i wrote in this, and i wont make it long, i need to go to bed, becuae i gotta work tomrorow.. so did nto feel like i had three days off.. grr.. so.. anyway.. jstu to write down some interesting things that happened this evening..well we went to sside to see Dereksmom and to go fishin.. but we went to see dereks mom first.. god i love her..shes so nice ..HA and loves to talk.. hehe.. i know i could tell ehr anything and know she woudltn tell anyone.. wait .. i have done that.. then she gives us (me and paula) copies of pictures shes taken of the group of us.. since none of us have pictures togheter.. well.. i got first choice of what picture i wnated.. there was three pictures...and all three had dereks arm around me.*tear*..well i took the best one where we can see all four of us.. but see Dereks arm.. well i didnt look to hard on it. cuz i knew id start staring at it, with derek inthe car.. so i just put them away.. then we went and had many... apon MANY adventrues.. well not really.. we did SMOKE SHOW CITY.. Paula, Aaron, and Marlys car just gave er' out in fort augustus somewhere, it was awesome, there is so many marks its not funny.. then we go back to stratford esso and basically jsut chill there for awhile.. THEN DICK ASS HOLE FUCKING COLBY O'DONNELL.. comes along..(as much of a prick he is) he decides to yell at the person with the lowest self-esstemm.. he yells at Paula that shes fat or something, which isnt true at all.. shes not.. so we decide to go after them.. we loose them of course.. but still.. paula was upset because .. ya know.. who likes gettign called Fat.. NO1.. so she was upset all night, and then derek calls her a retard for caring what people said to her, so she started crying when they were driving me home.. i hate leaving Paula when shes upset.. i hate leaving anyone when they are upset.. but.. i really hope she'll be okay.... i know it hurts when someone says shit to you.. but you gotta let it roll off your back, and relize that those assholes out there..will get there wish someday.. and all of its gong to come back on them.. i usually can't wait for the day that half the guys that said shit to me.. get what they deserve..i may not be aroudn when they do.. but i still can't wait.. but its bed time for pam.. i work tomorrow.. yay.. not really.. and then im going to try to go get into Peakes.. i wonder if its acuallly possible..PROBABLU NOT.. i honeslty dont see me gettign in.. but HEY.. we'll find out..
~Toodles~
~!Pam!~
haha ps.. TJ BARRETT.. said i had big tits.. MAN.. i really gotta do something with these things.. tapin them down is sounding pretty awesome, may try it next time.. see if any notices.. BUT frig i hate them.. UURRGGHHH ON MY BOOBS!!!!!!.. ya know how you can eat somethng to make them grow.. maybe theres something there to eat something so they skrink.. ill have to look into that tomorrow.. NIGHT!

What a Night!

2003-08-17T01:41:00.000-04:00

Oh My, what a awesome night. it all started off that i called lynsey and she was waiting for melissa to call her, cuz they were gon gout, and i was going to join them... me going to buy a cooler off of greg. but then i figured, why doenst melissa drink instead of me, and ill be driver for the night (which i really didtn care that i was.. it was my turn anyway) so that was fine, they both cracked open the liquor at my house. they were drinking away and we left to head to dereks..well before that happeed they really needed to take a picture with shawn *rolls eyes* .. so that was over and we left to go to dereks. when we got there.. no1 was really there.. so i took matt gallant and greg for a drive to get matt something i think it was an ID or money, not sure which or if it was both.. and here melissa and lynsey are totally fucked off there asses, cant walk kinda thing.. it was halirious. during t his time, i was takin pictures with matt's digital camera, making him a dirary of AUG 17, 2003.. haha so i was takin pictures of everything, it was awesome, all most got into several accidents becuae of it.. EEK~! anyway.. we got back to dereks and they kept drinking, lynsey put on a SEXY dress and melissa.. well.. melissa was jsut being drunk melissa.. umm nessa was all over MATT and then started RUBBIN ME!! eeeek.. i dyke hits on me.. im scared and ready to throw up hahaha.. anyway.. hmm what elswe sticks out;.. OHh that me and derek talked about Marly, i had to of loved that.. but i dont know whats going to happen there.. and i SWEAR TO EVERYONE i will nto go back to him.. no matter what happens.. he fucekd wtih me.. and im on the end of the line.. YES id TOTALLy mess aorund with him.. but not date him.. id LOVE for him to be my fuck buddy.. haha i think that woudl be awsome!..ANYWAY.. but i'm going to see what happens with us... I CNAT BELIVE MELISSA SAID .. "derek.. you belong with pam.. not marly".. i almost died/shitmyself/pissedmyself/heartattack.. ALL AT TH ESAME TIME.. but the weird thing is.. i kinda figured she'd say ssomething like that out loud.. but i hoped it woudlnt been infront of him. now me turning up the music.. going at a fast pace, and being anti-social for a bit.. made him wonder if i still wanted him.. or not.. cuz ya i do want him.. but id never date him. but thats another totally different story. WE SAW TROY TONIGHT.. HOLY SHIT.. and he sat inmy car.. im going to either get a new car.. or my car totally stripped clean.. haha anywayl.. its late.. i gotta work in teh morning.. catch ya later *hugs, kisses* ~! Pam !~

I am SO trashed

2003-08-16T01:01:00.000-04:00

ALright5, so its almost 2 am . and im still prettyu cooked outta my trees, its feeling awesome! haha.. anyway, werid night.. we had a adventure with marty 2 and the otehr bong.. it was awesome. mabe thays why im fucked! yay.. go team.. i do understnad sometimes, I REALLY DO. so ya.. paula was kinda cranky tonight, she was flippin bout going for a drive, i didnt care what i did.. buit i didnt want to move until we were sore.. becuae i was really comfortale, and instaed of standing.. we might as well as sit.. right? thats what i thought, .. PRINCESS WAS AWESOME TONIGTH, im like secretary for the ruler of this world( i.e. princess) or something like that, its aweosme and nessa will still always be my MOTEHR FUCKIGN SHIT.. liek jsut as important as the brdie.. its awesome, i wish i could be that.. its only for whores that give bj's for 3.00 for less.. right girls (when i say girls, i mean the girls at the pool.. MA lifegaurds) fuck they were funny at the party, and so were the guys, too bad hottie moore didnt stay longer, he kinda jsut jetted.. haha.. and then there was luke beck.. hmm i rmemeber lukie boy at kindergarten, chopping wood with willie beck.. and being a cowboy at holleween, when i was a clown, but i guess everyone was either clowns or teenage mutinatin turtles.. but theya re cool.. mM pizza, thye make me think of pizza... i shoudl go to bed.. haha im soooo can't wai to read this tomorrow.. ill ahve to piss myself laughing.. HAHA.. anyway.. nighty nighty nigty nightr.. SWEEEEEEEEEEEEET
~! Pam !~

HOLY FRIG IM GOOD!!!

2003-08-14T20:06:00.000-04:00

Alright.. heres a story that makes me feel good. alright.. once apon a time i liked Derek, i was always told by friends that i assumed too many things and i was the jealous type of person, so what i decided to do is not give a shit what i heard then..etc.. WELL.. what i assumed before was that derek and one of our freinds becky had soemthing going on when me and derek were.. so called "seeing eachother" well i assumed this becuase they were always like flirty..touchy feely, but the twist is that becky is going out with dereks bestfreind Greg. so i didnt know what to think.. and me and derek got into a fight about it..so on so forth, its been all passed .. time has moved on.. UNTIL TODAY.. i went to see paula at work when she told me that becky is telling everyone that week (the week i assumed shit) that her and derek did sleep together!!!!! SO I WAS RIGHT!.. and im loving the fact how peoiple told me to bacilly fuck off cuz i was being gay and stupid when i was the one actually knowing that it did happen!!! and anpother time when me and derek were finnaly gettign closer to each other.. i brought in a new freind to the group marly, well she knew how much i liked derek and how much i wanted to be with him, she kn ew every story .. and everything that happened with him.. well after a week or so.. i was getting pushed to the side.. i was getting ditched for marlu.. by my freinds, and then i started assuming that something was going on.. i said etiehr derek likes her.. or she likes derek.. and then BECKY(yes ..previous becky) to0ld me that assuming things gets me in trouble, so i totally agreed, and let it be for a week.. THEN i find out that derek and marly started goin gout.SO I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THAT HAPPENING TO.. so now im just going to call myself physic pam, cuz i figure things out;.. and i know peoples minds WAY to well. i really need to stop looking into things..bnecuase i find out the truth and then get told im stupid.. cheessh so stupid! i really dont be.leiove that im the stupid one.. I BEELVEI I ROCK AT EVERYTHING NOW that toallu made my night.. now im off to get loaded and probably cooked.. write to ya when i get home
~!Pam!~ err.. i mean ~! PHYSIC PAM !~

2003-08-14T10:18:00.000-04:00

Well it seems to me that im a tid bit hung over from lastnight!.. and it really sucked to.. some people were in shitty moods, so i got into a shitty mood.. so my retard graduation was the shits.. no offense to any of my friends, i loved them being there, im glad i could spend the evening with them.. but the overall atmosphere sucked the big fat cock.. hmm..and i had all night on mind was Nate. Frig, i really want to see him.. like grr.. i have a thing for him, and he supposly does hae the same thing for me, but we jsut NEVER see each other, it sucks. like GRR.. hes like evrything i've ever wanted in a guy, and we never see each other, sometimes i feel he doesnt even exist or he's jsut saying this to Janet for someones head to play with, thats totally not cool at all.so I guess i have to wait and see how he does feel when we do get to see each other.. THATS IF WE DO ... grr.. hes going tpbe living on pei, and i sont beable to meet him.. grr.. im so disgruntled over him. I wish my phone woudl ring and there would be Nates voice(with an accent..heh turn on) there asking me to do something.. like only if that could happen. like what could he be doing on pei thats important.. he saw the whole frigging island when they were here to stay.. then they appled at UPEI and accepted so they start soon~ yay... anyway.. i better go do something around my house i guess.. its only logical..
~!Pam!~

2003-08-13T11:03:00.000-04:00

i just got back from my LAST DAY at summer school..ad was it eer great.. she gave us the EASIEST test ever.. i was soo surprised it was THAT easy. i got 73% on that test.. which isnt that bad.. i've done better..but i graduated (YES I GRADUATED TODA) with a 80% overall in acedeic math.. which i previously failed by 4% ... im shocked i got that good... im about to have a heart attack or something..theres no way i can get tha good on a class other than typig.. now tongith im going to get SO cooiked and SO drunk.. itds goig to be amazig, and i'm not comming home tonight at all.. it will totally awesome!!!!!... BUT... im still bummed out nthat andrw ist here.. him beging here would of made my party even more awesme that what its gong to be.. ut .. i guess i'll see him soon.. *tear* and today was te last day that i'll see adam.. since hes going up to ontario for hockey.. *tear* hopefully he'llbe back faster than i imagine..lol.. but hopefully he does good.. il keep my eye on him.. lol.. anhyway.. im going to to lay down and rest for a bit.. gotta take a nap ad be toally energized for ths evening.. .. wll i mean ALLLLLLLL NIGHT.. fuk im going to hav ean awesoem night, i dont even care.. as i told derek.. if i have to go to my room lock my door ad have an awesome tme i will.. and he said .."he'll be with me" well good.. but i realyl hope people will show up somewehre so i can enjoy my night with all my frfeinds.. its been a long summer of going on time.. none of tha tnemore..IM COMPLETE of scool for a year.. anyway..chat tok ya soon
~!Pam!~

2003-08-12T15:46:00.000-04:00

Hey, so whats new today? hmmi got my nails done... man they were expensive!! lol.., i gotta take my lil brother to baseb all soon.. and im graduating tomorrow its soo exctiting!
umm. therfe so MAJOR hotties at simmons for edge hockey.. very exctitng.. so many guys i use to like.. i didn relize how much i liked hockey guys till i read the roster..theres guys like mike floyd, connor macdonald, luke beck, adam mackie, mann to many to name.. but MmM mike floyed.. hehe.. i rally dont know whats with me and hockey guys... theres somethingabout them tht really turn my crank.. hehe... i dnt know why i just say that.. oops.. anyway.. eough for now.. time to go to baseball..
~!Pam!~

2003-08-11T20:55:00.000-04:00

well just sitting here now, waiting for aaron to come get me.. soo boring!.. i have a hair drier up to my hair.. tryinto get the gell to dry, so it will be done when he gets here.. anyway.. gtg bye

2003-08-11T19:53:00.000-04:00

Well this is my first journal entry. hmm what to really say. i just got home from workl, im still wet from swimmin in the pool. it was really a lot of fun, i totally enjoyed work today, now im going to soon head into the shower because aaron is comming to pick me up soon. yay. going down to the dirty exhibition.. how fun can the night get! *BOL* anyway.. nothing more to say other than nates here.. andrew is suppose to be here and my head hurts like hell.. not cool at all.. seeya around
~Pam~